bullet with butterfly wings

I'm currently listening to 'Cupid de Locke' by The Smashing Pumpkins.

How could I ever have forgotten that Mellon Collie & The Infinite Sadness is simply the greatest album there is?

I'd lost one of the two CDs almost a year ago, and I'd cried. It was the red one.

Yesterday, I found it in the case of the old Everclear cd my brother had passed on to me.

This is bliss. I love this band. I love this music. I love it all.

I'm going to go drop a rec for B/S music videos to both Galapogos and Cupid de Locke at Crumbling Walls.

Cause damn, that'd be good.

makes me want to scream

People who are fanatically religious are butt-fuck crazy.

Just conversations with them drive me crazy.


There was this guy out in the quad at my school. He had a bible out and was standing on a stage, spouting about how he gets depressed and thinks about suicide because Democrats and people like Gray Davis aren't thinking of commiting suicide--since they're all "babykillers."

::Shudder::

Shit makes me want to scream.

Another student got into a debate about him with afterlife, and reincarnation, and the other religions in the world that don't preach heaven or hell. Then the student told him to jump from the tree with no feet, and we'll all get to see where he goes. ::snicker:: The guy (who was white) apparently wasn't absorbing the fact that the multi-ethnic population that is California means the people he's talkin' to often don't have christian backgrounds.

I went up to him and asked him if he thought people who support abortion deserve to die, like he said earlier. He said yes.

I asked him if he thought it was morraly right of him to wish deaht on another person.

He said, if the bible says so. X( What a jerk. More than a few people around us reacted to THAT statement, you can imagine.

I told him wishing death on another person was wrong, always.

He took that opportunity to start on again about how "killing babies" was evil. I walked away shaking my head at a lost cause--him.

Now I wish I'd stayed around long enough to say "If you wish they'd die then you're no better than people you hate. I hope you spend your next life as a toad that gets run over by a car taking a woman to an abortion clinic."

But of course, I didn't think of that until after I'd made a strategic exit from that pointless conversation.

It was funny watching the people around him though. This one guy in a tight black shirt, with a very short bleached mohawk and a tattoo kept waving his fingers at the guy and making funny faces.

Watercolors

Before you ask---No, not seen the episode yet.


This is a sad, beautiful song that my mother played for me a few years ago.

It's gorgeous in its own right, but it makes me think of Buffy & Spike now, too. Especially all the sex scenes of Dead Things, and the scene where Buffy seeks out Spike in AYW. In fact, its almost chilling how close this describes their relationship.


WATERCOLORS
(Janis Ian)

I remember photographs
Watercolors of the past
He turned & said - You ask much of me
Then, when we'd made our peace
We lay between the sheets
He turned & said - I set you free

Go on, be a hero, be a photographs
Make your own myths
Christ, I hope they last
Longer than mine
Wider than the sky
We measure time by
Go on, be a hero, I set you free
Your stagehand lovers have conquered me
They'll send you carnations
While smiling faces look on and applaud
Go on, go on, go 'way from me

I said - do you wish me dead
Lip service to books you've read
Articles on how to bed a bird in flight
You called it love
I called it greed
You say - You take what you want
I say - You get what you need

Go on, be a hero, be a man
Make your own destiny if you can
Go find a fence, locate a shell
And hide yourself
Go on, go to hell, go away from me
I need no charity

He said - come unto me, I am beauty, I am the light
Come unto me. Hold the darkness and stay the night
For I am wonder, I am the heart's delight
Tomorrow we'll fight

Come on come on, come near to me
Come be my fantasy
We'll talk it over again some time
I'll send some flowers
And change your mind
But for tonight, turn out the light
Hold me- Come on, come on
Set me free
Lend me your charity




::sigh:: A good, mature love story is so complicated isn't it?

Are not some of these line scarily appropriate?


Nos, if you're listening, you need to try and download this song, or hear it somehow. I think you'd love it too. :) And anniesj, wisteria_ ... if you guys are reading this then you can't tell me this doesn't appeal to your deliciously smutty, angsty minds. ;)