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I came here to bitch about the cold.

And then in passing, I looked at other people's journals, and they're bitching about the cold too, only they're bitching about NEGATIVE degrees cold.

And here I am, wanting to bitch about 35-40* cold.

So I thought: No, I probably shouldn't.

And then I thought: What the hell am I saying? It's fucking cold. For me. And yeah, maybe it's not snowing or even frozen over yet, but it's still fucking cold and I still am not used to it and i STILL WANT MY FUCKING WARM CALIFORNIA NIGHTS BACK!

so, yeah. the cold. not fun. i want it to be a pleasant 75* outside at night again.

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got this from hils:

Your Existing Situation
Active, outgoing, and restless. Feels frustrated by the slowness with which events develop along the desired lines. This leads to irritability, changeability, and lack of persistence when pursuing a given objective.

Sort of, except for the active part. But restless, irritated at slowness, yeah.

Your Stress Sources
Seeks independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoids obligations or anything which might prove hampering. She is being subjected to considerable pressure and wants to escape from it so that she can obtain what she needs, but tends to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

Lack strength in purprose in what to do with my life, but I'm not really being pressured, so... no.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling.

Nop, not it either. I WANT a close relationship, and am fully prepared to devote emotioanl attention to one.

Your Desired Objective
Seeks luxury, sensuous comfort, and the indulgence of a taste for the voluptuous.

So not what I care about right now. Stupid test, go away.

Your Actual Problem
Seeks security and a position in which she will no longer be troubled by demands being made on him.

Wrong again. I HAVE freakin' security, and that's the problem because I'm unconsiously handcapping my own progress because I'm unsatisifed with it.

Your Actual Problem #2
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to escape from this into a stable and secure environment in which she can relax and recover, free from any further demands on him.

This test is just getting further off the mark the further I go.
Just goes to show you that quizzes, while fun, are full of shit.

(no subject)

Well, I'm going to make a doctor's appointment on Monday.

( messy pain issues ahead )