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I love this new Spuffy blend by Dead Romantic from Crumbling Walls forum.

You can find the rest of her blends here.



... if this pic doesn't show up properly, just go to the link site and scrool down to the last blend on the page, it's Spike/Buffy.

fic rec

Alright, here it is.

My first Firefly fanfiction rec, all shiny and sparkly. I was talking to dragolyn and she asked me about Firefly fics, and I told her about this one, and so I thought I'd follow up and mention it to the other people who read my journal as well, because I really did like it. Very smart angst.

I've skimmed over the 45 or so fics up at ff.net, and only read about five all the way, cause most of them looked bad, either the summaries or the first paragraph. And god knows if the first two paragraphs are bad, the likelihood of the rest being decent is much lowered.

But I found one that was a real jem, if a bity one.

"Leaving Serenity" by Celli

Summary: "Some days, he's fairly certain he only ranks above the crazy girl in usefulness. And those are the good days."

I immediately knew I'd like it for that line alone, especially since that's what Celli chose to summarize [her?] story on fanfiction.net. And the ficlet, short though it was, lived up to that line.

HOLY SHIT.

Wow. DAMN.

I'm not even half way through _wisteria and anniesj's Hard Candy yet, and already I think I can say it's now the definitive, the penultimate, of all Buffy/Spike smutfic.

Cause... well... shit.

I'll give a longer, more coherent review later. Now I still have more to read.

Edited to add:

Oh god. I just read 'glitch', 'trailertrash' and 'sell out' and now I'm on the verge of crying. 'Solar' did this to me too, and the church one and all of it. This is ALL so so awful and painful to read and so so wonderfully written.

Edited AGAIN to add:

'Flash'. Whoa.

doozy

I'm sitting here, drinking milk and eating cheeze-its from a coffee mug, and I'm STILL reading Hard Candy... because its difficult, and I need to take moments to porcess, ya know? To let the horror and angst and tragedy set in a bit. Until now I'd counted Herself's stories as the darkest B/S I'd read. But this is darker. yes.

....

Just was walking down the hall when I caught the Carm/Tony scene on The Sopranos. Where his whore called their home, and his wife couldn't take it anymore and threw him out.

Wow. Eddie Falco is amazing. And that scene was so bitter.

And now here I am, having to come back to more scary dark stuff.

Because I can take a minute-long break from fics like this, but I can't stop reading.

hard candy fav

Ok, 'PEEP SHOW' is my favorite chapter of Hard Candy.

Because it's so so sad.


:::::

Ten minuted later---

No, no. I was wrong. 'EROGENOUS' is my absoulte favorite.

Cause I'm reading it while listening to "A Stroke of Luck" by Garbage, and it's perfect.



Edited to add

Ooh... but 'SKY' is such a great chapter too... especially listening to Stone Sour's "Bother."


Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit

and again...

I know I've been blabbing for like 4 entries now about how much I love Hard Candy, but I can't help it, because annie and alanna's words have picked me up, wrung me out, and left me swaying in the wind.

Some chapters broke my heart, and some built it up again. There's not one that wasn't perfect.

And the last one broke my heart the most. I started reading it to Crowded House's "Into Temptation", which flowed into and finished with Allison Krauss' "That Kind of Love" (Entropy). It's my favorite, hands down. Because it's beautiful. And its ending was so so perfect, in every way.

Annie, Alanna.... I have this huge fangirly/writer/spuffyfan crush on the both of you right now.

And if I'm not careful, I'm gonna start thinking of all this as canon, and then I'll be even more biased to this romance and then if I don't get some kind of love or hope for love by the end of this season I'll never watch tv.

ever.

again.


See how dangerous your fanfiction is? You've spoiled us.

"Nothing in the verse can stop [you]."

PETITION!!!!

Petition to save Firefly: http://www.savefirefly.com/