Subject: SPOILERS for BTVS FINALE!

Whew! Well, I did it. I spent the weekend not only working on my Film Class paper on theme in Spirited Away, but also on finishing the BtVS/AtS short 3-chapter fanfic that I began on Thursday night.

SPOILERS FOR CHOSEN AHEAD! YOU HEARD ME!

It’s set in the middle of a speculative Angel season 5, with no AtS spoilers whatsoever except the casting one that everyone already knows about anyway. Honestly, the rest is entirely my imaginings. Even though this is only about 2500 words, it turned out to be longer than I expected. It was going to be just two parts, but I realized something was missing to link them together. I’ve also gone over it about 15 times, at least.

I’m putting this up swiftly, as an apology to those people’s who’ve commented on my journal for my never finishing/revising and putting up that post-Showtime fic ‘Markdown’ or that post-Dirty Girls fanfic about Buffy and the rain.

Thanks to hecatehatesthat for helping me with remembering what the Hyperion Hotel looks like on the outside, and for the early encouragement. And thanks to girlwithjournal, who also said it sounded like a neat idea, and who wasn’t afraid to talk to me over the phone though we’d never met.

Summary: AtS, season 5 casting spoiler only. The aftermath of someone’s Shanshu. Three meetings: 2004, 2006, and 2007. Spike, Angel, Xander, Buffy.

snippet:
He didn’t have to touch the pendant to remember his death. That morning and the year preceding it were etched in diamond in his mind’s eye. Perhaps it was because he’d had a soul in those last several months, the same soul that made him human now. Perhaps it was because that was the time he most wanted to remember of his old life; the year he was loved.

Chapters 1-3, complete: This Is Your Life

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Sadly, I was not able to put up all the pretty icons I made this weekend. Am very sad. But I have lots of time to do it I suppose.

In my boredom I also made chocolate chip cookies, applied for 2 jobs, and watched the first 4 episodes of Serial Experiments Lain. Which, besides being seriously fucking weird, was also mind-numbingly boring. It’s hard to image something with the violence that show has (not the worst ever, but still very present) could be boring, but it was. Someone tell me it’ll get better? Or don’t—it’s not like I bought it anyway.

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I re-read Spiders From Mars by mustangsally78 and RivkaT (LJ name unknown), and was once again thrilled by it. What I love about their fanfic series is that I never know what to expect out of it. I certainly had never expected ‘Xander & the Evil!KnightRider!Car.’ :snert:

Anyway, this is a list of what I call RivStang-isms, that struck me as horribly funny:

"holy water ice cubes"
"technicolor yawn."
"Above and Beyond the Call of Pies."
"weapons-grade chocolate,"
"brownie orgasm"
"pastry banditry"
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Irony's a bitch that fucks you up and makes you cry, if you cry for that sort of thing

I just read this post about Something Blue episode at Crumbling Walls forum.

And it made me think about the certain shiny/glowy/sad moments of the finale.

Oh, the irony. Wind Beneath My Wings... Haha. Very funny, Mutant Enemy.

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I'm absorbing my first Xander/Dawn fanfic. It's nicely written, but... strange to actually read.

doldrums

I'm feeling all pouty and stuff. The last time I wrote a fanfic and posted to ff.net it late at night, it was a 100-word drabble and in the first 12 hours I got 5 reviews. This time I posted a 2500 fic (a better one too) and I've gotten no reviews from ff.net at all. My inbox is lonely.

This whole review system of fanfiction feedback is evil. It makes me flighty and self-conscious and dependant. LJ and forums are better... it's just there; there's no "Reviews: 0" hanging at the top of my story.

Oh well. Anime club in 17 minutes.

Edit: The review system being evil doesn't mean I don't want reviews. In fact, I adore reviews. I want them. I unhealthily places bits of self-confidence onto them.

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Went to 2nd meeting of Anime Club. There were only four of us, and one left fairly soon. Me the only perosn not an officer, and thus not required to be there. I told them they needed to do some heavy advertising and planning.

I think I'm going to be running this club by next year, if I stay a member. Or at least co-running it. I might make that my ambition. They're doing so little right now... I'll help. And they're sorely lacking in personell, so it's not like they don't need people to fill administrative roles.

We had no working tv, so I chatted for the whole 2 hours with the two remaining guys, G and C. We talked a lot about anime, and partially about other shows like Farscape or Lord of the Rings or video games like Final Fantasy. Turns out-- Buffy fans. C more so... G had that look of "I am a fan, but I don't want to appear silly by gushing about it."

C was a little hesistant too; we were still in that phase of "I don't know you well, but I know you're a fan and you know I'm a fan, but am I really free to reveal how muuch of a fan I am without you running off?" But once I asked C about the finale, I got him talking. We agreed that it was very sad, that the little girl playing baseball was both cute and scary, and poor Spike, and Angel had his destiny handed to him all easy. That was mostly C, but I agreed with him about it. He watched the finale of Angel Westely the Series too. Neither C nor G knew about the casting spoiler though, and were surprised. We all 3 agreed that if Spike got the Shansu, it would not only be cool but also wonderfully ironic. We agreed that we'd have to shift our loyalties to Angel now that the Buffy show was sad and over.

Later in the conversation, when talking about LOTR which led to talking about what it might be like to live in Australia, C & G made a dingo joke, specifically laughing at the phrase "dingo ate my baby." That's when the real fannishness of it all got to me, and I felt like I'd really like these guys.

They were highly amused when I told them the anime show Ronin Warriors reminded me too much of Saturday Night Live's The Ambbiguously Gay Duo. That led to a discussion about yaoi [slash] in anime fandom, especially series like Gundam Wing, where 5 of the 6 main characters are male.