to the pain

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Ok, I know it comes with the whole 'woman' package.

I know that it's normal, and it's supposed to suck beyond the telling of it.

I know that every other woman goes through it too, so feeling sorry for myself is pointless.


But JESUS FUCKING SHIT-HOLED HELLL! I don't deserve to have debilitating cramps FOUR fucking HOURS in a ROW--- TWICE IN ONE DAY!

I take midol. I take tylenol. Aspirin. Ibuprofen.

It doesn't fucking matter. I had to leave class yesterday because it was so bad I had lean over and clutch at my abdomen gasping and moaning in pain.

I barely survived freeway driving so I could moan & groan in debilitating pain AT HOME instead of in front of dozens of people in my class.

I had to lie in my bed for two more hours with a hot pad on my stomach, curled up in agony.

Then... it settled for about three hours, and I was alright. I ate dinner. Things were good. I thought it was over.

No chance. About 11:30 pm it all starts again. More bone-scraping stomach pains, lying in bed hoping I could just die, until sometime after 1:40, when I finally fall asleep.


Nobody fucking deserves this. It never used to be this bad. What the fucking shit did I do for it to hurt so much, for so long?

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thanks. I will.