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I was reading the sequel to "That's Why They Call It The Blues" by Nataku-chan, and it got me thinking about my own long-neglected Cowboy Bebop fic.

Basically my idea was to take all the cliches of post-series fic, and run with them--in reverse. And add a dose of Faye/Spike but leave it open-ended too. In fact I planned out about 20 chapters, and I know the basic plot from end to end. I designed it more like a short novel in layout than an episode. I even planned out how I want Spike's character to develop over the course of the story and how I could incorporate changes over time that were a direct result of how the anime ended. I have Edward and Jet there as themselves and not as plot devices. And my storyline was good too-- pretty damn original, but with touches of that CB style too.

The only problem is that I can't get off my damn butt to write the first chapter. I've done the prologue, but I can't seem to go any farther than that. I know what I want, but it's like I have no confidence that I'll get Spike to talk and act like Spike acts in the show.

And to top it all off-- jaina actually gave me the dub of Cowboy Bebop, so that I could a) make vids if I wanted to, or b) refamiliarize myself with canon if I wanted to write fic, since its been like a year and half since I've actually watched the show.

And I still can't make myself even WATCH the episodes. It's like my mind is trying to out-think itself: what if I rewatch it only to realize along the way that my Great Idea for a fanfic is not even plausible after all? What then? I shall be heartbroken. But on the other hand, how can I write fic if I can't even remember details of Spike's speech pattern, how he talks? How will I write convincing dialogue or inner thoughts?

Or, to sum all the above paragraphs up in one statement: I'm a chicken. Yup. This post deserves my indecisive Wembley icon.

Comments

[kenzier.livejournal.com]

::hugs and encouragement:: It sounds like a wicked plot.

[brigidforest.livejournal.com]

You really shouldn't worry about it. I just don't understand this obsession with canon. What's it matter? If it's good writing, then it's good. The character needs to be believeable not a clone of CB. That's kind of boring, and besides it's not really possible to do so. Do Spike as you see him. I don't want to read that asshole from the series that I only grew to like after a whole rewatching of the series. I want to know what the writer thinks of him. I want to see the writer oozing in the story through style, through attitudes, and through the characters.

Just own it and write it. Canon is a bad word. We should let go of it. I think that's why I'm done with fic after BP. I want my own characters. I like to think I own my Spike, and it's not Watanabe's Spike. I especially like to think I own my Faye, because if she's close to Watanabe's Faye then it would be an insult to my own sex.